New Environment, New Changes, New Challenge

"Welcome to the new stage"- I wish to myself.. 

so far, nothing very much different as I moved to new phase in my life.. juz get new frendz, new environment.. but I realize there was something change with me when I was at workplace for the whole last week. actually, at the first week being an employee, I juz be a good listener instead of being a very talkative person, and juz observe people around me.. but at the same time I try to be friendly with new colleagues with huge smile =)

ok, that was 1st change that I successfully done! 2nd, I try to accept anything that I dn't like by cooling my self. actually, my current job not related at all with my study background. at first, I felt very unsatisfied with that, but I try accept it as a 'test'. maybe I can take it as a bit experience to face my life forward.. 

I believe everyone wanna get a job that related with their studies rite? same goes to me... but sometimes, we have to accept and appreciate what we already have right now.  but at the same time, don't give up to get our aim or dream.. maybe it not comes to us easily, it's not so easy to get what we really want.. just keep going to find another chances.. 

once I moved to new phase, also got new shock! very scared when met people with many types of attitudes, life styles etc.. it's very challenge our iman @ principles.. semoga Allah pelihara imanku hingga ke akhir hayat..  actually it's depend to ourselves whether wanna blended together with their attitudes or stand with our own principles. in this situation, we supposely strictly stand with our own principles so that we dn't juz follow the flow in front of us.. aku tak nak cakap besar, sebab takut kata-kata akan memakan diri sendiri.. cuma sedaya upaya aku akan cuba avoid from all kind of things yg boleh merosakkan hidup aku... 

very hard to understand my words? ok, secara simple, someone talk to me like this and I take it as an advice. he said, "saya tengok fresher masa mula2 kerja, nampak baik jer, tp setahun or dua tahun lepas tu, character dia dah berubah..jauh beza dgn mula2 keje dulu.." nauzubillahi min zalik.... actually, that was perception to us as a fresher lebih2 lagi 'org kampung' macam aku nih... for me, that is a challenge. it's depend on me how  I can handle or face it or knocked down by the challenge..

"Life full with challenges.. depend to us how to handle it effectively."

Last Day at UKM

Berakhirnya zaman bergelar degree student.. now, move to another phase, as an employee.. hmm, cepatnya masa berlalu, terasa baru semalam mnjejakkan kaki ke perbukitan ilmu UKM, tp hari ni adalah last day aku kat sini.. sudah tiba saat utk aku meninggalkan segalanya di sini..

Sedih ke? ntahla.. aku xpasti apa perasaan sebenar aku saat ini.. nk kata sedih, sedih utk ape? nk kata gembira pn, ada la ckit sbb terasa begitu merdeka slps tamat viva, setel tesis, habis exam.. tunggu utk konvo jer awl bulan 8 ni.. 

Cuma aku rasa aku nk bina hidup baru lps ni.. esok akan bermula segalanya, aku akan mula kerja.. aku niat betol2 utk bekerja dgn brsungguh2, aku tak nak ada affair dgn sape2 kt ofis nanti, aku tak nak terlibat dgn apa2 mslh lain lebih2 lg soal hati.. cukuplah aku bermain dgn hati, terasa tidak sanggup lg mghadapinya utk kali yg seterusnya.. dh tiba masanya aku membalut dan membawa hati aku.. 

Bergelar pekerja, aku harus berubah, aku harus berdikari, harus pandai defend diri sndri, tak perlu aku harapkan org lain utk back up aku lg.. aku bukan student lg.. manusia sekeliling mungkin memaafkan kesilapan seorang pelajar kerana masih berada dlm proses pembelajaran, namun lps ni agk mustahil lg semua 2.. 

3tahun berada di UKM.. mcm2 perkara dilalui, mcm2 rasa.. suka duka, pahit maung semua ada.. terasa agak sayu utk meninggalkan semua tu.. persatuan, PERDANA, fakulti, kolej, dan bilik kesayangan yg luas lg selesa.. 

Sayu juga aku nk tinggalkan tpt2 yg aku selalu lepak.. ptsl - tpt aku mncari ketenangan, mencari mood utk stdy. stadium - tpt aku selalu jogging ngn kwn2, juga trdapat kenangan istimewa di situ.. court badminton sebelah blok - tpt aku selalu main bdminton ngn tat.. tasik kejut - tpt yg aku suka jln2, kdg2 jogging situ, juga shoot pemndangan senja yg indah.. bilik PERDANA - tpt brkumpul dgn shbt2 PERDANA, rindu juga dgn meeting PERDANA yg kdg2 smpai pkul2 pagi baru hbs.. semua tu hanya akn mnjadi kenangan.... 

hmm, tamo aku feeling lebih2x.. sbnrnya entry ni adlh entry pghargaan dan juga permohonan maaf, 

kepada sahabat2 coursemate.. tat, sufina, fifi, sarah, erina, wani dll..juga geng2x coursemate laki.. xlarat weh aku nk sebut sume..aku mtk maaf byk2 seandainya korang banyak terasa hati ngn aku yg tak berperasaan nih, terima kasih di ats bantuan dan sokongan korang selama nih.. sejak akhir2 nih baru aku rasa wujudnya ikatan ukhwah antara kita.. sebelum ni kita semua jrg sgt nk brkumpul2, brgurau senda, lepak2.. tp dkt last2 nih barulah kita semua unite cikit.. baguslah perubahan tu, tp buat kita sedih pulak kan nk berpisah.. kalau tak unite tu xde la sedih sgt nk brpisah.. 

seterusnya kepada sahabat2 PERDANA.. fifah, kak nora, kak ainun, kak fizah, anah, apih, asrul, anuar abg mi dll. seriously, aku tak pernah rasa ukhwah yg begitu hebat sesama shbt sehingga aku masuk ke dalam kamuniti PERDANA. terima kasih ats kasih syg yg dicurahkan.. maaf juga di ats salah silap, terkasar bahasa.. maklumlah, dlm organisasi, selisih pendapat dan sedikit tidak puas hati adalah perkara biasa..semoga dihapuskn perasaan tu sume slps nih..

tidak lupa juga kpd mantan2 PERDANA yg byk membantu aku selama setahun aku dlm PERDANA, special tribute to Che Ahmad, kak Azie, kak dayah dll.. maaf andai terdpt salah silap, halalkan makan minum terlebih terkurang.. jasa anda semua aku ingat sampai akhir hayat.. maaf kerana selalu menyusahkan korang..

sebesar2 terima kasih juga buat pensyarah2, ketua program Dr Is, mentor aku Dr Saiful Hafizah, supervisor aku Dr Zaidi, dan lecturer2 lain Puan Noriza, Cik Rafidah, Prof Malek yg byk bg input kt aku dll... terima kasih di ats jasa kalian dlm mencurahkan ilmu dan juga dorongan kalian.. aku cukup mghargainya.. 

dan akhir skali special tribute to my bestfren.. tat, sufina, syikin, fifah, ama, fiza, aisyah, shina dll.. koranglah yg byk mmberi semangat kt aku di kala aku down tak terbangun, di kala aku kesedihan dan rasa loser.. sesungguhnya jasa korang amat2 aku hargai.. tak tahu aku nk balas mcmmana.. harapan aku semoga ukhwah kita berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat..insyaAllah.. 

oklah, sbg penutup entry.. wish good luck to u all, selamat menempuhi alam pekerjaan.. selamat menempuhi fasa baru dlm hidup.. semoga kita jumpa lg di lain masa...insyaAllah..

"Ku tangisi pemergian mentari di senja hari, 
namun ku bersyukur dengan kehadiran kerlipan bintang-bintang di malam hari.."

Future Plans Toward Reaching The Dreams

Finally, exam seasons come to the end.. but it's not really over coz I've to present my theses next week.. oh, tak sabar nak buang title 'degree student'..

As the title 'degree student' getting over, I'll becomes as an employee.. no idea the pathway I'll go through, I think it will be more challenges, full of tricks with many kind of human attitudes and etc... but I praise to Allah for making my life going smoothly right now..

So, from now on, I've to plan about my future toward reaching all my dreams.. I've to plan particularly about my finance, my little leisure time, and also my future life..

Hmm, once becomes as an employee, my mind start to think how can I spend my salary effectively? while lust start to demand for everything to buy and get.. my mom and dad starting to dream tht I drive a fancy car when I going back to hometown.. yela, org ada degree, takkan guna kereta wira @ viva @ saga jer, malu pulak kt org kampung.. that was my villagers perspective.. adeh, ingt org ada degree ni kaya sgt ek???

Personally, I'm different from others. I'm prefer to buy a house @ land as an asset rather than car.. coz price for land or properties going up by the time move forward but inversely proportional with car... memang otak konvensional kan actuary student ni..fikir profit jer..hehe..

Unfortunately, car is a requirement.. while properties is an asset for future benefit.. hmm, quit difficult to make a decision. I think it's better to buy a cheap car like the 2nd hand car..hehe.. for the first phase lorh! when I felt my life more stable, myb I'll buy another one, the fancy car..kuang3x.. within the movement to 2nd phase, myb I'd my own apartment or land..

What abt 'The Rest of My Life'? hmm, sometimes I think when I hv all the asset especially car and house, 'saham' aku will going down.. quit worries abt it actually.. yela, laki mesti takut nak dekat kalo tengok pompuan dah lengkap semua kan.. hurm, xkisahlah.. kalau ada jodoh ngn sape2, maka kahwinlah aku ni..

Talk abt married, it remind me to the previous entry.. people ask me abt the characteristic listed for my Mr Right. actually it wasn't exactly conditions for the Mr Right.. it just hope, if it becomes reality, then it is a bonus for me.. otherwise I accept it as my faith. and the best answer is "utk mnjadi Mr Right saya, tak perlu penuhi syarat2 tu semua sekiranya selepas solat istikharah saya nampak dia, dan dia nampak saya.."

"Biar hidup sendiri dan masih kekal serinya daripada dikelilingi lelaki tetapi telah hilang maruah diri.

Biar lambat bertemu jodoh tetapi tinggi peribadi daripada cepat jodohnya tetapi tidak lama ditinggalkan pergi."

Sorry For The Way I Wrote

Note : Please read this entry with cool mode, not with angry mode or 'nada sinis'. 

First thing I want to wish here, "thanx a lot to someone for ur comment abt my blog yesterday." such a meaningful thing for me coz it make me realize tht the way I wrote in this blog might be hurt somebody when they red. I think abt his comment for the whole last night. so, here I ask apologize to everybody if I had been hurting you all by the way I wrote here. 

I admit tht I always use such annoying sentences, condemning someone in my previous entries and it might be hurt some readers even actually they are not related at all with any annoying words here. so sorry for that.  

Normally every annoying sentences I wrote tribute for some related person. so, please to all.. please dn't get hurt if the sentences are not related to you as a reader. I dn't mean to hurt anybody,  I juz wrote it coz I want to release all my feelings, all my sadnesses, and all my expressions since I dn't know wht else I can do to release it. I dn't mind if you all as a reader didn't leave any comments, unfinished reading, condemn my entry or anything else coz I wrote here juz to calm me down from wht I feel during the writing. 

I know here is not the best place to release all my feelings, but I think it's better than I release to people around me coz I wonder it will getting worst since I'd a bit 'hot temper' such using annoying words ( ayat pedas). so I wonder it happened out of my control. 

But now I realize, I cn't be like this forever. I've to change my bad attitudes, I've to control my anger, I've to be friendly with people around me. hopefully you all can encourage me to be a good girl. please give me some comments or advise or even condemn abt my bad attitudes, abt my writings and many other things.

Some good stuff to share ( selingan utk diri sendiri) :

Doa Menghilangkan Rasa Marah : 

Doa Memohon Kesabaran : 

>>>> I appreciate a lot with anybody that realize abt my mistakes then comment or advise me abt it rather than leave me because of my unnoticed mistakes. 

Miss Arrogant with High Demand!!

Felt sick with some guys tht always asking me, "y u becomes too arrogant with me?" ufh, no idea wht should I reply coz I'm always like this and I dn't mind wht they describe abt me.. I'm an arrogant not now, but since I was at primary school. many guys fear to approach me coz I rarely give a pretty smile or bermanis muka.. 

But there had some guys try to approach me.. then, it's ok with me actually.. it was proven tht actually I not such a very arrogant, but in fact I not a talkative person with unknown person unless I feel comfortable with them at first sight! but not love at first sight k. never trust with it.. 

Allrite, to be comfortable, I hv my own characteristic listed so that I can decide whether to be arrogant or not. 1stly, I look at his style.. I like a simple guy but not serabai ye.. I very2 dislike guys with jeans londeh macam ramai guys pakai skrg nih. cawat seluar nk sampai kat lutut! menyampah tengok.. 

2nd, I dn't like guys tht too 'show off' especially for the 1st time meet. I'm prefer a low profile guy.. he not a famous guy.. the most I like is Mr Arrogant but a bit shy!! haha..suit la for me rite? he might not hv any relationship with any girls, like still origin la.hehe. 

3rd... enough lorh, can't publish here all the characteristic listed.hehe.. but a bit confess here, within this 2years, I didn't close with any guys even just in cyberspace except 'him' (dulu la). for now, I dn't chat with any guys at YM, FB or many other social networks. tht's y most of the time, my YM goes offline. chatbox at FB also goes offline for everytime. same goes to my handphone. very rarely my hndphone is ringing.. kalau adapun, comfirm la from my family or coursemate.. kuno sgt ke aku nih?? persetankan apa org nk fikir, yg pastinya aku xsuka layan org yg tak dikenali.. tht's y I always reject anyone tht add me as friend @ FB or YM contact. sorry ye.. tak kisah la org tengok and ckp, "cikitnyer friend dia kt FB, 300 lebih jer.. org lain beribu-ribu.." ada aku kesah?? 

Ok, base on the declaration above, no wonder people give me the title "Miss Arrogant with High Demand" rite? I'm proud enough with the title "Miss Arrogant" but quit disagree with "High Demand". ok, anyone can judge me whether the "High Demand" is a good title for me after read my 'high demand' listed below:

i.     I demand for a guy tht are dislike football. tak kisah la dia main or tengok je, then sorak2 pukul 3-4 pg...

ii.    I demand for a guy tht are doesn't smoking..

iii.  I demand for a guy tht are doesn't like over social with frenz, hanging out at shopping complex, kaki wayang, kaki karok, kaki snooker dan yg sewaktu dengannya..

iv.  I demand for a guy tht wake up early morning.. very2 dn't like guys yg bangun kul12tghri. aku pn kdg2 tido gak lps subuh tp paling lewat pun kul9.30 dh bangun.. kira boleh consider lg la kalau guys yg bangun dlm kul9.30 tuh!hehe

v.  and the most important is, I demand for a guy yg tak tinggal solat walau di mana dia berada.. tak de yg terlepas subuh nih! reject terus!!

Dah la tuh, cam nk cari calon husband plak entry nih! adeh.. 

avoid from 'coupling'... hanya selepas nikah k. insyaAllah... (selingan)

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